I always pictured people who created blogs the type who layed around in their apartments in woolen sweaters typing furiously at the crack of dawn; thick black glasses reflecting the the light from the computer screen with a lit cigarette glowing under an ashtry, smoke curling up as creative genius empty into the world. An "Underdog Writer" An enigmatic soul reaching out to the intellectual community.... As attractive as that sounds, I am none of those things. I cannot claim that I am an artist or have anything to say that an intellectual community can appreciate. I need spell check and have conflicting thoughts most days But I figure that in this world too many CRAZY things happen to NOT say anything. This blog's purpose is to muse on those things. So those of you who volunteer your time to read this Welcome to Dear World :)

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

Teenage Dream

Do you remember how dumb you were as a teenager?
You felt like your own person yet your parent(s) were finacially supporting you and you never had any responsibilities outside of household chores and school work.
I remember specifically that as a teenager I always lived in the here and now. It was a dumb mindset but I always thought of myself "adult minded"
I as a teenager made choices that felt good at the moment; never considering some of the consequences that may occur from my actions because I knew that if everything failed I would still have my parents for my basic needs.
 Have we as adults passed that selfish mindset? Sure, we may not be sneaking out the car to go visit our boyfriend or throwing parties in a house that we do not rent against the owner's wishes but sometimes I think that adults today make similar self destructing choices that effect not only ourselves but the people who actually care for us. Many times,our thinking is somewhat hedonistic and selfish to our community and to the people who loves us. As teenagers, we were held to a certain accountability from our parents. As an adult, who hold you accountable? The common answer to  that question would be ( myself). Are we teenagers in mindset when we believe that the standard is within ourselves? Isn't that exactly what we thought when we were sixteen?   
so I guess my ending thought is..
Great. I have a job.
Great I pay rent. and my own bills.
Do I have a "I can do whatever the hell I want attitude"?
Do I have an attitude of "let me see how much I can get away with"?
because just like when I was 16 there is a consequence visible or no
that I have to pay for my every action. 
Who am I letting down? 

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