Memento Mori

Today is Good Friday: The day that Christ died on the cross for humanity. It hit me hard today when one of my coworkers looked at the clock at 8:45 and said that it was fifteen minutes till Christ was put up on the cross. I never visualized or even thought about the time frame of Jesus dying on the cross in our place that way before.Which is surprising because my faith in Jesus Christ is such an important part of  my life.

(ahhh.. I'm starting to cry in the library writing this and I'm sure people think im crazy). That fifteen minutes was the longest most heartbreaking 15 minutes that i've ever experienced. It just made the sacrifice that I do not deserve at all more real to me than it has ever has in such simple words. 

I guess it hasn't helped that Ive been thinking about the latin phrase "Memento Mori" all week

First it was just a concept; Then I thought It would be a good tattoo idea and started wearing it in tiny letters written in pen on the inside of  my wrist. 

The meaning  in Latin is "remember that you must die"

It is used in the context  "remember that one is mortal/ that you are on a timed life" 

some people take it as a "seize the day" type of statement

 But personally,

 Its a humbling statement that tells me that I have no control and what I do selfishly, in my own will instead of God's  means nothing in the grand scheme of things because I am not only mortal but also corrupted

we are small simple and weak and there is someone (GOD) who is bigger than us and of a perfect nature.

I can write no more but I leave you with this...

²⁴ Then the soldiers nailed him to the cross. They divided his clothes and threw dice^[c] to decide who would get each piece. ²⁵ It was nine o’clock in the morning when they crucified him. ²⁶ A sign was fastened to the cross, announcing the charge against him. It read, “The King of the Jews.” ²⁷ Two revolutionaries^[d] were crucified with him, one on his right and one on his left.^[Mark]

⁴⁵ At noon, darkness fell across the whole land until three o’clock. ⁴⁶ At about three o’clock, Jesus called out with a loud voice, “Eli, Eli,^[j] lema sabachthani?” which means “My God, my God, why have you abandoned me?”^[k]

 ⁴⁷ Some of the bystanders misunderstood and thought he was calling for the prophet Elijah. ⁴⁸ One of them ran and filled a sponge with sour wine, holding it up to him on a reed stick so he could drink. ⁴⁹ But the rest said, “Wait! Let’s see whether Elijah comes to save him.”^[l]
 50 Then Jesus shouted out again, and he released his spirit. ⁵¹ At that moment the curtain in the sanctuary of the Temple was torn in two, from top to bottom. The earth shook, rocks split apart, ⁵² and tombs opened. The bodies of many godly men and women who had died were raised from the dead. ⁵³ They left the cemetery after Jesus’ resurrection, went into the holy city of Jerusalem, and appeared to many people. [Matthew]